Only.

2 weeks left. At my appointment yesterday, one of my doctors basically told me I couldn't have the c-section we've been discussing and planning for months now. Either because of 'hospital policies' or needing a sterile field, which is complete BS because all of the things we've asked for are commonly practiced by request these days. So I'm confronted with the reality that we may need to go to a different hospital - or even go to a different doctor, because I'm not okay with repeating the experience I had with G, no way, no how. 

So.. I have to stay calm, try to be rested and zen, and at the same time, I need to get all of my ducks in a row and this place clean for my mom's arrival. All easier said than done. Wish me luck!